Tuesday, May 29, 2007

To-Do

-write prayer beads prayers

One thing knocked off the list. I wanted to scratch it off days ago, but I had a few of the paidín chants left to write. The whole thing is complete. Of course, with one thing knocked off, one gets added:

-translate paidín prayers

I'm not sure what I'm going to work on next...maybe the essay about shrines? I need to keep working on naming the holidays, and placing the holidays for Na nDéithe Lasmuigh. Actually, I want to work on the Gealach Dubh ritual soon, too. I think that'll be next.


Ritual
-write Altú 5/23
-translate Altú
-write Na Tinente Chnámh Mór rituals
-write An Cór rituals
-write Gealach Dubh ritual
-write Ceangal ritual
-write Dúthracht ritual
-write Beannacht ritual

Calendar
-name all unnamed holidays (44)
-figure out regional An Cór holidays
-add all Na nDéithe Lasmuigh holidays
-add Hero & Land Spirit holidays

Other
-write morals & ethics essays
-compile significant myths
-write mionn mór & geasa essays
-write sacrifice & offerings essays
-write seven merits essay
-write essay regarding founding a teallach
-write essay regarding running a teallach
-write essay regarding aonair practices
-decide which life milestones will be celebrated in ritual
-decide what to do about Hero & Land Spirit holidays
-redo FAQ portions about Ancestors, Land Spirits & Good Folk
-write essay regarding multi-path walking
-write essay regarding shrines
-write prayer beads prayers 5/29
-expand on An Bhís Gealach, An Bhís Grian & An Bhís Cloch
-translate paidín prayers
-write Na nDéithe Mór essays
-write Na nDéithe Lasmuigh essays
-write Na na-ainDéithe essays

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

To-Do

I went through my previous posts and the assorted and scattered files on my computer, and I think I've compiled a good list to start with:

Ritual
-write Altú 5/23
-translate Altú
-write Na Tinente Chnámh Mór rituals
-write An Cór rituals
-write Gealach Dubh ritual
-write Ceangal ritual
-write Dúthracht ritual
-write Beannacht ritual

Calendar
-name Na Tinente Chnámh Mór holidays
-figure out regional An Cór holidays
-Na Treibheanna
-write Na nDéithe Mór essays
-write Na nDéithe Lasmuigh essays
-write Na na-ainDéithe essays

Other
-write morals & ethics essays
-compile significant myths
-write mionn mór & geasa essays
-write sacrifice & offerings essays
-write seven merits essay
-write essay regarding founding a teallach
-write essay regarding running a teallach
-write essay regarding aonair practices
-decide which life milestones will be celebrated in ritual
-decide what to do about Hero & Land Spirit holidays
-redo FAQ portions about Ancestors, Land Spirits & Good Folk
-write essay regarding multi-path walking
-write essay regarding shrines
-write prayer beads prayers
-expand on An Bhís Gealach, An Bhís Grian & An Bhís Cloch

As I get things done and come up with new things to work on, I'll try to work off this list, subtracting and adding as I need. Looking at it like this makes me realize how much I need to do! Sigh.

// Juni

Altú

Finally, I've sat down and written the Altú rituals, to be done by someone on their own or in a group setting. Now I just need to finish my translations (as everything spoken in ritual is done in Irish Gaelic.) This is a slow process, as I have to get everything double checked by others more competent in Irish than I am.

I've been thinking about the calendar some more. I haven't played with it at all- no new names for any of the holidays or anything- but I have been debating some things. For one: Siúlóirí work with all three tribes of Na Treibheanna (Na nDéithe Mór, Na nDéithe Lasmuigh and Na na-ainDéithe) to various extents. Each of the 13 nDéithe Mór has a 3 day holiday over the course of the year; each of the deities (the number of which hasn't been solidified quite yet) of Na nDéithe Lasmuigh will have a 1 day holiday somewhere in the year. But where does that leave those of Na na-ainDéithe? I mean, they're not gods, as such (as reflected by their name, "The Not-Gods") but they're still worthy of our respect and reverence.

To go on a slight side note- I need to redo part of the FAQ, I just realized, as I didn't initially include Na na-ainDéithe as part of Na Treibheanna, so all the references to work done with the Ancestors, Good Folk or Land Spirits need to be rewritten. Oh boy.

Back to the calendar- the question becomes: how do I honor them within the year without overwhelming my already stuffed calendar? (It's pretty full, honestly, if you consider the weekly Altú and the monthly Gealach Dubh rites. [Which, speaking of, I haven't written up anything for Gealach Dubh either, and I'm not sure if I should. Maybe a basic beginning and ending to make it more uniform and put one in a reflective and ritual mindset, and leave the middle bit open for the reflecting? I think that'll work.]) Members of Na na-ainDéithe fall into one of four categories, basically: Ancestors/Beloved Dead, Land Spirits, Good Folk, and Heroes. I suppose I could do one holiday for each of the four categories? That would keep it simple.

If I go off that model, then I essentially only need to add two holidays, as my calendar as it stands has Lá Bealtaine as the day of the Good Folk and Oíche Shamhna as the night of the Beloved Dead/Ancestors. Those two are UPG extrapolations from the Celtic and Wiccan holidays of Beltane and Samhain. But what to do for the Land Spirits and the Heroes? When in the year is an appropriate time to honor them? I'll have to think on it some more.

I think I'm going to wander through my files and previous entries and put together a bulleted to-do list, as I'm much better at accomplishing things when I have them laid out that way.

// Juni

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Personal Practice vs. Conair an Cheo

I've been rereading the last post, involving my to-do list- for one thing, it's changed a bit, and for another, I realized that I don't want to include stuff about my personal practice here. This blog isn't concerned with my shrines or the personal prayers I need to write. So, I've set up another blog with Blogger (because I'm not really interested in flooding my website with religious posts). You can find stuff that is specifically mine at The Spiritual Babblings of Juni.

I've figured out the calendar! Well, part of it. This is a big step. Each of Na nDeithe Mór, The Great Gods, has their own 3 day 'festival', pretty equally spaced through the year. The rest of the gods, Na nDeithe Lasmuigh (The Outer Gods), that we don't work with that much, will have a single day holiday somewhere in the year. I'm not as worried about getting those dates worked out just yet. I still need names for most of the holidays, but it's a start.

I haven't started writing the Altú yet, but I've been thinking about it a lot, and trying to figure out what I want to incorporate and what's not as important. A lot of "why?"'s are popping up. My main struggle is not to make it so elaborate that it isn't practiced (after all, it's supposed to be done every week) but not so laid back that it can't be distinguished from one's daily practices.

I still haven't started writing the deity essays. I almost did- actually, I keep almost starting, and then not. I wonder if I'm approaching this the wrong way. I think I'm still being too....what's the word...strict? about it. I think I need to stop envisioning what they should be and just get going on them being anything.

Back to the calendar- I've started charting the weather every day, mentioning what season it feels like. I'm not particularly in tune with my environment, so this has been a little difficult. I need to figure out what spring or summer looks like for CT, before I can work on holidays/rituals to celebrate it.

I've been thinking more on life milestones/rites of passage. One thing I had decided previously was not to do anything really related to marriage; I can't remember who had said it, now, but someone on TC had mentioned their irritation with pagan paths that included marriage/handfastings just because the mainstream religions they were used to included marriage. But- Conair an Cheo is meant to be a 'family' path, and marriage is not only creating a new, tiny family but bringing two others together. I'd like to recognize that. I think, though, that anyone marrying a non-member would be encouraged not to have a religious wedding, because god oaths and other such symbolism and practices wouldn't make sense for a non-member to do.

There's too much to think about! I don't know how HeartShadow does it.

// Juni

Thursday, April 5, 2007

The To-Do List

I have a lot of things I need to get done, both for the path and for my own religious practice.

I want to write a basic, standardized Altú, which is a weekly, sort of two part thanks-giving ritual. At the moment I only have a vague idea of what I want for it. I'll do a single person version first, and then work on adapting it for more than one person.

For me personally, I want to work on specific deity prayers, and a prayer to say before bed.

I want to get started on writing my deity essays. I know that I've not started because I'm waiting to read more and know more, and completely ignoring the fact that once written, they are not in stone. They can be edited and changed, and they have to start somewhere.

The calendar needs a lot of work. A painfully large amount of work. An Cór always celebrates the four solar holidays (the solstices and equinoxes) but also has holidays that are situated based on the locale; ie, the holiday for the beginning of summer would be different depending on if one lived in Maine or Pennsylvania, and someone living along the equator probably wouldn't have a beginning of winter holiday. Also requiring my attention are Na Tinente Chnámh Mór, which encompasses the deity specific holidays. I have all the deities placed, so to speak, based almost entirely on my own UPG, but I'm worried that I've been more focused on balancing the year than placing the deities' holidays where they are most appropriate. I'll have to work on that as I go through and name them, as well as lock down specific dates.

I need to write about the various life milestone and path milestones; I need to write about offerings, sacrifice, geasa and mionn mór; I need to write about the seven merits and talk more about ethics and morals. I need to write more about non-Irish practices being done in conjunction with Conair an Cheo. I want to pull together a list of all the myths that are of importance to us, and their various interpretations; I may or may not write my own interpretations- I was playing with the idea, but I'm not sure it's something I want to take on quite yet.

And I forgot that I need to work on my shrine designs, so I can get the materials and start building.

I have too much to do!

// Juni

Monday, April 2, 2007

Conair an Cheo FAQ

Introduction to Conair an Cheo

What is Conair an Cheo?
What does Conair an Cheo mean?
What does hard polytheistic mean?
What does pagan mean?
Who do you worship?
What do you believe?
Who is in charge?
Which is more important- believing or doing?


Are you...

Are you Celtic Reconstructionists?
Are you Druids?
Are you Wiccans?
Are you Shamans?
Are you Rennies/SCA members?
Are you Satanists?
Are you Witches?


Beliefs

What do you believe the Divine is?
What do you believe the gods are?
Why do you think we're here?
Do you have a creation story?
What do you think happens when you die?
What is the ethical basis of Conair an Cheo?
Where do the ancestors fit in?
Where do the land spirits and fairies fit in?
How important are offerings?
Do you have hard and fast rules about hot topics?


Practices

Do you use magic?
Do you have a holy book?
What kind of groups do you work in?
How do you worship?
Are you all priests?
Do you worship the Lord and Lady?
Do you create sacred space?
What holidays do you celebrate?
What kinds of rituals do you have?
Do you have to be a priest/ess to perform a ritual?
How do I make offerings?
Do you perform sacrifices?
What kinds of practices are involved daily?
Where does nature fit into your practices?
Do you take special names?
Do you have a Book of Shadows?
Do you work skyclad?
Do you have familiars?


Membership

How can I join?
Do you have to be Irish to join?
How old do I have to be to join?
Can I be a member of X and Conair an Cheo?
Are initiations necessary?
What books are good for someone new to Conair an Cheo?
Do I have to pay to join?


Miscellaneous

Why did you create Conair an Cheo?
Is Conair an Cheo a path, or a religion, or what?
Why do you use Irish Gaelic phrases and words?
What is this "thwapping" business, and is it important?
Why doesn't x match with what I read in book y?
How are alternative lifestyles viewed?
Are you all feminists/vegetarians/vegans/pacifists?
How much can you teach a child?

Miscellaneous

Why did you create Conair an Cheo?
I created Conair an Cheo to fill a hole in my heart that I couldn't fill anywhere else. More precisely: I spent many, many years learning about various polytheistic religions and paths- often, my studies were very superficial, because I learned very quickly that they weren't the right path for me. All the while, I had a feeling that I can only describe as an aching heart. I languished, practicing little or not at all, as I found myself unable to perform ritual or do much else of a religious nature without a solid religious reason behind it.

I hesitate to call my motivation desperation, but certainly for a deep seated need I set out to figure out exactly what I believed, to make religious study easier and more precise- allowing me to say I wasn't a member of religion X because of reason Y, not because of some poorly articulated gut feeling. In doing so, I realized I was well on my way to creating my own path- after all, I had these beliefs, now I just needed a practice based on them- and so I started codifying them into a path that I could share with others, if others were so inclined to share it.

So, to concisely answer my own question (seems a little late for concisely, anyway): to give myself a religious framework in which to practice my beliefs and honor my gods, with the added bonus of being able to share it with like-minded persons.


Is Conair an Cheo a path, or a religion, or what?
Though I frequently refer to Conair an Cheo as being religious in nature, I myself will never call it a religion- for me, it will always be a spiritual, religious path that I walk, and am willing to share. I will not say whether my path fits other people's definitions of "religion", but since I'm currently the only one walking it and I'm the one creating it, it doesn't fit my own definition of a religion. To me, a religion is something that must be shared by a community, and it must withstand the test of time without significant change. If by the time I have great-grandchildren, Conair an Cheo is still around and the same in all the important ways, maybe I'll think about calling it a religion, but certainly not before then. That being said, others may call it whatever they please!


Why do you use Irish Gaelic phrases and words?
Conair an Cheo attempts to work within an Irish Celtic world-view and culture; language, we feel, is one of the greatest ways to understand a culture's values, ideas and mindset. There are some concepts in Irish that simply cannot be fully translated to English without losing one meaning or another, and so we prefer to present these and other things in Irish Gaelic. While fluency in the language is in no way necessary, basic pronunciation is useful.

Something important to note is that I myself am a beginner level speaker- my Irish is still weak and there may be inaccuracies. Feel free to point them out if you see them!


What is this "thwapping" business, and is it important?
If one lurks and lingers in the pagan world long enough, the phrase "being thwapped", or something similar, will inevitably come up. Also known as being "god-bothered", it refers to a person believing they have direct contact of one sort or another with a deity. This concept is not restricted to paganism, but I personally see it most prevalent here. Often, being "thwapped" is described as an almost physical sensation (the term clue-by-four springs to mind), and frequently implies that the deity doing the thwapping has made some kind of claim on that particular person.

It is not our place to say whether the religious (or perceived religious) experiences of a person are valid, possible, or anything else, but being god-bothered or thwapped by any deity isn't important for a member of Conair an Cheo. One's relationships with their gods is between them and their gods, and in the end the gods will know the truth of one's relationship, faith and heart.


Why doesn't x match with what I read in book y?
That would be because there is no definitive book on Conair an Cheo, so anything one finds in a book may or may not be applicable to this path. Also- reading this website, or information on Conair an Cheo anywhere else, does not qualify anyone to call themselves one of us. I'm not trying to be mean, I promise, but this is a family centered path, and someone claiming to be part of your family when they've just read your family site is a little weird!


How are alternative lifestyles viewed?
The same way as the so-called "normal" lifestyles. Everyone is wired a little bit differently, and one's sexual orientation or preferences, or other such "alternative" mindsets, matter as little to us as their preferred color. As long as one walks the path with honor and integrity, how they walk it or who they walk it with is irrelevant.


Are you all feminists/vegetarians/vegans/pacifists?
No. We believe in equality and being responsible with natural resources, but we are not necessarily feminists, nor vegetarians or vegans. As one of our major deities is considered a goddess of battle and war, we can hardly be called pacifists.


How much can you teach a child?
The only limit to what a child can be taught is what the child can comprehend; there is nothing in our lore that is considered "adults only".